May 11, 2008 at 12:56 pm · Filed under Emotions, School
So, I’m a bit worried about keeping my scholarship now. I did get a C in public speaking. UNBELIEVABLY PISSED. I also did get a B in Theory of Religion, ALSO UNBELIEVABLY PISSED. If I’d known I couldn’t pull off an A in that class I wouldn’t have spent, oh, hours on END studying and reading and busting my arse for that class. Ugh. Sickens me. It was a good class but I’ve never put that much effort into a class for a B.
And then I completely bombed my last Hume paper. Could get a C there.
And then I probably got an A in symbolic logic, the only class that makes sense this semester. I have no clue about my honors class and how that might play out. I’m pretty sure it could be a pass/fail class. Either way I put no effort in so I’m expecting a B.
This is my first semester ever getting a C, so I’m kind of freaking out about my scholarship at the moment. Hopefully it evens out nicely, but Hume might be the deciding factor. I just can’t believe it. I put so much effort into this semester, so much stress, and I’m getting worse grades than last semester when I put in no effort. I guess that’s just how it goes, bleh.
I drove home last night and left town at 10 PM. I got here at 2:30. It’s kind of nice driving in the middle of the night… I was totally awake. I knew I couldn’t spend the night in the dorms again. Not without Corey. I knew I’d spend the whole night in tears and well… That kind of sucks so I drove instead. I ended up having to get rid of a lot of my stuff when I came home, stuff that I left with my ex last summer. I threw away (donated, according to the many dumpster divers): a 29″ tv, a dvd/vcr player that only had mono audio, my mini fridge, my phone, my book case, a bunch of books, my laundry detergent (lol), my mini vacuum, food, yeah. SO MUCH STUFF.
I couldn’t fit it all.
Leaving Corey, eh, I hardly even want to talk about. 
Sucks. Really, really sucks. We spent one night away from each other since spring break, seriously. I miss him, and it hurts. Especially because I know we won’t get to talk much due to the time difference. If I get a normal-time job, it’ll be one in the morning his time when I get done. And I need a job to get there. It’s kind of funny how that works; if I get a normal job to get to visit him then I’ll hardly get to talk to him. I would love to go there though, SO MUCH. Blarg.
I miss his eyes, and listening to him breathe while he sleeps. And kisses. 
May 6, 2008 at 3:00 pm · Filed under School
Today I am forever done with public speaking and Theory of Religion. Yes. Sigh of RELIEF!
It’s amazing how much better I feel now that the only classes I have left are the ones I really enjoyed. I mean, I enjoyed Religion, but it was a lot of hard work. I enjoyed other peoples’ speeches in public speaking, but uh, nothing else at all.
As it turns out, I’m on the cuff in both classes. In religion I’m at an 89%, but that’s a cool cuff to be on. I think I’m sitting at about a 78% in public speaking. DAH. I just wish I’d taken the extra time to do those four or so homework assignments. And not missed class. Every absence was like 30 points off your grade, and there are 700 points total. So… an additional 60 points off.
Can you believe this will be my first C if she doesn’t decide to round up?
Unbelievable. I’m surprised I didn’t get any F’s last semester though so I guess I should be thankful. SO, Corey got away with missing his final yesterday, right? Well, this morning my alarm didn’t go off and he missed his make-up presentation. UGH! I was so pissed at my alarm. It’s never not gone off. Never. I think I probably turned it off and on again in my sleep instead of pushing snooze.
But the prof decided to let him present in front of another class tomorrow at 7, and he’s very excited about that. He managed to get to the prof’s office soon enough but the guy wasn’t there. I don’t know how he handles things like that. I would be hyperventilating.
Sooo sleep deprived. I miss the internet. We spent all of yesterday in the library and I feel downright beat. Time for another nap lol. Presentation tomorrow, final and final paper Friday! Good luck, me! 
May 6, 2008 at 2:14 pm · Filed under Reviews, Internet
I just realized today that I’ve had this same theme on the blog for eh… Forever? Yes. Forever. FOR EVER! Dudes. I know it has to have been over a year. I promise, next week I will be working on a new one.
I really miss web design. I miss graphics, I miss placing things and moving things around pixel by pixel. I miss making it clean and logical, and finding out about new CSS tricks and all. Sometimes I wonder if I should have gone into webdesign but there really isn’t a good program here at school.
Just recently they opened up an internet graphics design course at the University. I was going to email the prof to see if I could get in, I mean, wouldn’t that be AMAZINGLY AWESOME?! I would absolutely love having more design skills.
I wish I kept up with web design more lately. Today, I even found this cool Web design blog! They talk about graphics, website templates, and the design life in general. The most recent entry is about how to be successful with your business, and hopefully I can apply some of those same principles here.
I’ve really neglected my sites since the summer, and it’s not exactly the sort of thing to keep “bringing people back.” I think following sites like this would help me get more motivation with my designing to keep people coming back. I miss getting and giving tons of comments and the sense of community. I would love to get back on the bandwagon. I miss coding, I miss CSS and Wordpress. This summer I have plans to make some downloadable Wordpress templates too.
This new design site has really sparked my motivation! I can’t wait until these next couple finals are over so I can return to the internet world. They’ve also got some good tips on monetizing your blog and software in general, not just design. Check it out! I can tell it could grow into something really awesome and helpful. I know I’ll be checking in.
May 5, 2008 at 2:24 pm · Filed under School
So, eh, Corey got away with it again. He didn’t look up the time for the finals slot for his music presentation and paper. Well, he went to check his syllabus this morning, and behold! His presentation was at 10:00 AM THIS MORNING. And his final 10 page research paper (he has 4 pages) was due.
One quick email to the prof, and cha-ching! He’s in business. The prof said, “Come by my office hours tomorrow and give me the paper, and just tell me about your presentation.” Which means, he doesn’t even technically have to give the presentation. He was actually bummed about this, because he loves his topic.
Oooh, he’s such a lucky turd. Sooo lucky. I’m glad though, because close calls like this let you learn lessons, but don’t ruin your GPA if your prof gives you some room to be dumb.
Currently we are both in the library working on research papers. Mine is for my Religion class, and I pretty much just have to beef up my icky draft. Then I have to study for tomorrow’s Public Speaking final. It shouldn’t be too hard but I want to get a good grade on it so I don’t get a C in the class. I didn’t do my homework for a month and a half of the semester. *scoff*
Plus absences count off 20 points for every one, so I lost 40 points there too. DAH! Maybe there’s no way I can get a B. I should email my prof and ask really… It’d be my first C. Amazing I’ve been so lucky this far.
After that, it’s one simple presentation, my symbolic logic final, and my huge huge huge huge Hume paper. If I keep spending time at the library and turn off this stupid free wireless I’ll be pretty set. Now if only I didn’t have all kinds of dumb errands to run in between.
May 4, 2008 at 10:19 am · Filed under General
So, last night Corey and friends didn’t get back in town until 1 AM. I was starting to get super pissed, as I told Corey I was going to wear a nice dress for him and he said he’d be back at 10. I put it on at 9:30, an itchy thing covered in glitter that is now all over my room. And, well, no call later… I found out at midnight that they were an hour away. Blarg. But I was too happy to finally see him to care much.
Yesterday was the Kentucky Derby. I thought it was supposed to be on Sunday so I missed it. It’s turned into a family tradition since my Grandma died, because it was a big deal to her. The whole family picks horses and the winner gets a prize. It turns into a really emotional day for my Dad, and he makes mint juleps. Before she died I don’t think I’d ever seen it… but I think it’s a good tradition. It’s better than remembering her on the day she died almost, y’know? Remembering an event that she loved and celebrated.
I didn’t win, btw. Apparently they had to euthanize one of the horses, so I’m sure everyone was pretty sad about that. It was the pick my Aunt had made.
I don’t think I mentioned this, but I’m going to live with my roommmate from freshman year again next year! She had an open space in her apartment and a desire to have a roommate who is drama-free. We never had any drama as roommates, seriously. She stuck to her side of the room, and no one ever stole the other’s stuff. If I was studying she didn’t bring friends over, and vice versa. Of course, that might be different now that we both have boyfriends to add to the mix. As far as I know, Corey isn’t into stealing other people’s food so I think we’ll be okay.
Her past roommate and the roommate’s boyfriend were HELL though, I couldn’t believe the stories! They resented her after she went home for the summer, where she had been really sick, and wanted the apartment to themselve when she got back. So they basically tortured her until the roommate finally got pissed enough to move out, but not after telling her that she was racist. That’s right, she was racist for not liking that the roommate’s boyfriend ate her food. And they had been best friends prior. Wow, right?
I’m only writing this because I’m working the desk, haha. So boring down here. It’s my last 4-hour weekend desk shift for forever YAY!
May 3, 2008 at 8:56 pm · Filed under Internet
Katy is holding a contest at her personal blog - Faster the Chase - to win a book, The House at Riverton by Kate Morton. To have a chance at winning, all you have to do is head over to this entry at her website and copy the text at the bottom on to a blog at your website. Easy, right? This will be the first of many contests so make sure you check out her blog regularly. She will ship anywhere in the world so everyone is free to enter.
May 3, 2008 at 8:14 pm · Filed under General
I’ve been productive today, but not with homework. It makes the anxiety grow in some ways and drop in others. On the plus side? I finally got all of my stupid laundry done. Now I’ll be set for the first big section of summer. I hate doing laundry at home, the one benefit to the dorm laundry is being able to do it all in one shot.
I didn’t do it all at once though because the stupid washing machine didn’t spin all the water out, so maybe I’m giving them too much credit. Grr.
It’s so boring without Corey around. This is like the second day in the semester he’s been gone this long. Usually he’s gone for about five hours at a time max. I feel weird about doing stuff without him here… I feel like I’m supposed to wait for him to get here or something. Amazing how attached you can get to having someone around for 4 months.
My strawberries are coming along nicely! I’m going to have to transplant some of them soon into their own sections. There are 8 plants now! WOOT! Not bad for 11 total seeds. 
May 3, 2008 at 8:08 pm · Filed under Reviews, General
Getting things shipped is hard, even when you have small loads. I haven’t gotten around to shipping my brother his phone charger, just because it’s such a pain to get to the post office with all of this homework. I also need to move this futon back to my ex-fiancé. I still use it so I don’t want to move it too early.
Moving huge things is a big logistical problem for companies. Around Wyoming I see companies ship huge fans and metal parts for power plants and the like. It makes me wonder, who in the world ships those things and how much must that cost?? I just heard about LGI, a freight company that ships internationally to the US, Mexico, and Canada. They deal with an even more difficult consideration: how to get big stuff like that across the border. I bet that requires all kinds of paperwork.
They do road trucking, ocean freight, rail, and air cargo. A look through their special projects gallery shows them shipping things like jet engines, tanks, and more. I see companies like this being essential to businesses working with big equipment. It’s important to know the right people and they look like they could get anything done with their resources! I’m sure they could move my futon for me, haha.
May 3, 2008 at 10:56 am · Filed under Emotions, School
So, now that I finally have some free time, I’m not studying. Dumb idea, right? I’m kind of feeling this constant anxiety about finals, but it’s not a motivating anxiety. It’s a buttface anxiety.
My plan for this week is to spend a set amount of time with each class every day. I say I should do an hour, but really it’ll probably be a half hour for some classes. I should really spend this weekend writing my two papers and getting a draft in for the Hume one. The other paper is due Tuesday and all I really need to do is beef it because I got really good comments on the draft this week.
I also have plans to do yoga every morning, because it really keeps me on track and motivated. I’m still super pissed at my coworker for yelling at my floor for being quiet. I had my door open; I know when they are being loud and obnoxious. Can I do my job? Without being discouraged? ktnxbai.
Last night I started packing up some things. Mostly it was just wall decorations, but it makes me feel like I’m getting a head start so that I can spend the weekend with Corey when finals are over. He’s so snuggly! The past couple nights when I was up late writing my speech and my paper, he would randomly wake up and tell me he loves me. I asked him about it in the morning and he says he doesn’t remember it at all. It’s adorable that his subconscious feels the need to tell me too. 
May 3, 2008 at 10:48 am · Filed under Work, Reviews, Rants
So, all of the guys are going down to Colorado today, to do nothing really. They’re going to play tennis and then hit a magic shop for our magician friend. I guess it’s pretty cool, but if I went we’d have to take multiple vehicles and mine is falling apart.
You guys should totally see my car lately. I went down to meet Corey’s family in it and it’s seriously a mess. The paint is peeling off of the trunk, it needs a wash, and it is running like crap. Gas mileage is down the tube and it takes premium. Cha-ching, right? I know I have made this rant time and time again, but really I need a new car. I just don’t trust the thing. It doesn’t help that Corey is trying to get his driver’s license and I’m afraid the DMV will reject my car lol.
Unfortunately, I’m not very good at looking for cars on my own. I need my dad with me, and he’d probably be the one to provide the financing, so I probably won’t get one for forever. Maybe this should be a part of my summer savings. If you need help looking for used cars, check out the link. It shows competitive prices of tons cars near you, and helps people like me with tips on avoiding scams. Not to mention the site design is very nice. There is also advice on what to ask a seller when buying, and what to look for with test driving and pricing. Score! Now all I need is the summer job.
Those of you who’ve noticed probably realized I added ads to a couple places around the site. Hopefully that brings in some extra cash too. I’ve been against the idea in the past but financing my life is worth it.
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May 2, 2008 at 8:21 pm · Filed under General
So, it’s 24/7 silent hours as of about twelve minutes ago. Hall rounds come by, and we didn’t even realize it had passed the 8 o’clock mark. What does my coworker say? “Shut up, 24 hour silent hours.” That was, with a tone that I didn’t think could have possibly been a fellow RA. You don’t just tell people to shut up.
I know she thinks this will be a repeat of last year, but honestly? TWELVE minutes?
All I can say is, I can’t wait for this job to end. Can. not. wait. I even already left my RA facebook groups. And I’m totally cool with talking about my job because there’s only a week left, and I’m cool with firing. Grah.
I finally got my paper done and those two quizzes, which were super easy. So now I have three finals (technically one is a presentation) and two papers. One of the papers is already drafted but my prof wants a lot of changes.
I’ve been having really bad indigestion today. I took a nap after eating tacos for lunch, which is a bad idea. One ginger thing and two peptos later my stomach still hurts. BAH. I hate stomach problems. Hate hate hate, and I think it’s where I store all of my stress.
Oh, on another subject, I’ll be starting up PPP posts soon. I’m going to France and I need all the cash I can get.
May 1, 2008 at 7:42 pm · Filed under School
So, today I sold some books back. I was spending about $14 for the cheaper small books used at the bookstore, upwards of $30, per book, for my religion class. Today I took back about eight of those same books. Guess how much I got back? TWENTY-SIX BUCKS. The bookstore strikes again! I still have more to sell after finals week, but UGH. It makes me so pissed.
Especially when she’d gone through the whole pile and then said, OH! The Bookstore actually wants this one so you get $6.50 instead of $1.50! And I was like, great, I know for a fact that each and every one of these books will be reused for Theory of Religion next semester. The same professor. The same theories. The same used books with my fresh margin notes.
Assholes. At least in the past I could tell myself that the textbooks must be changing. Oh, and thanks lady for informing me that the bookstore “actually wanted” only two of the eight.
Oh well.
Today I also gave my final speech for Public Speaking. I think I did a pretty good job leaving an impression on the audience. They liked it anyways. But I had a really hard time with the effects of speech-giving anxiety.
SERIOUSLY it is INSANE! 
I was feeling so anxious that it was like last summer when I was trying to break up with my ex-fiance. I swear I have panic attacks and stuff. This leads me to believe I should firstly be doing more yoga, and secondly, probably talk to my prof about how their insane structure makes speaking so much harder on everyone. I mean, I was a debater in high school! Criminy!
So yeah, the instant the speech was done all of those feelings melted away. I didn’t get much sleep though, only a couple hours, so I napped from about three o’clock to now.
On a completely different subject, we had this amazing new sub restaurant in town. It was the first time I’d absolutely loved a roast beef sandwich. I think I’d gotten about ten of them, and then a week ago? I got a reminder as to why I hate roast beef. The fat, the gristle, UGH. BARFY! They gave me a shitty sandwich finally, and now I’ll probably never have their roast beef again. Sad day. Only eleven more days of snuggle time til Corey leaves.
April 30, 2008 at 12:33 pm · Filed under General
So, I was in my Hume seminar on Monday, and out of the blue, it was my turn to answer a question. Unfortunately, I don’t remember the context, nor do I remember the question. But I do know that my professor turned to me and asked about a bucket instead of another b word that is part of a common phrase. I TOTALLY don’t remember what the phrase was.
Two seconds later, she said… “BUKKIT? Where did I come up with that? Too much time on icanhascheezburger. Walruses and their missing bukkits…”
I was the only one who cracked up, but I thought it was priceless. I shouldn’t be surprised considering how much time she spends talking about her cats, but I don’t know, it just feels like a small world.
I got that paper peer reviewed yesterday, and I guess I did a pretty damn good job on it. No one had any major qualms about anything, and no one talked about it as much as the others were talked about. I think part of the reason was because I’m a talker and I can’t comment on my own paper, lol. BUT, I also found out I FORGOT to write my stupid paper for the class yesterday. Again. Gah, I hope the prof doesn’t think I don’t care.
Hopefully I can pull off an A in that class. Probably not, I think I’m on the edge. And with all of the late work I’ve turned in, I think she might be keen to screw me over with rounding up. I have an 89 right now, we’ll see. On the plus side, I have the most solid A in any class I’ve ever had in my symbolic logic course. I got four quizzes back and got perfect on all of them. Bwahaha. I did have to use my magic on one quiz though. We get one “fucking magic,” or FM, for derivations on the quizzes.
Too funny. I still can’t figure out the problem though. Bah.
This week is shaping up. I have my speech tomorrow, and I’m a bit worried about that, but mostly I’m excited to get the class OVER WITH. Stupid public speaking. It’ll be a good speech too; I’m going to talk about pseudo-vegitarianism and how it’s hypocritical for us to think of vegitarianism as an all-or-nothing movement. At least, not the way I’m approaching it. Hehe. I think it’ll make for an interesting speech.
April 28, 2008 at 12:07 am · Filed under General
Corey is sleeping next to me. I asked him before I went down to work for a few minutes if he wanted anything to drink, and he said yes… by the time I got back he was so zonked out I could only wake him up enough to kiss me. Adorable.
We had a big day. We went to visit some of his relatives… I ended up meeting four of his cousins, two aunts, an uncle (who seemed super funny), and his Grandma. And his Grandma’s cats. Haha. In a way it kind of makes me sad, because I know that I would love for significant people in my life to meet my grandparents, and now I only have one Grandma left. Sad. We still talk about them all the time and I suppose that’s enough.
We had a really great dinner at a Vietnamese restaurant and then we had to return early. I think Corey is so zonked out because he had to drive, which he’s not used to so it probably stresses him quite a bit. I dunno. We went to get his license on Friday and then they didn’t have anyone giving out tests, he was disappointed.
Wii MARIO KART came out last night! A friend of mine bought it and we played until about 3 AM. Another reason to be sleepy. I didn’t get any homework done this weekend, which was probably a really dumb idea. It means I have a ton of reading to finish for my class tomorrow (it’s in the afternoon but still), and my Tuesday class. Then Tuesday night we have our last floor meeting of the semester. Wednesday night I prepare for my final Thursday speech, and finally, I have a paper due Friday.
Suddenly feeling a little stressed, haha. It’ll be good though. I’ll get this week under my belt and then one more to the finish. On the one hand, though, I’m not at all looking forward to semester’s end. Probably the warm snuggly thing laying next to my leg. I’m going to go join it.
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